transitions.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

im starting to wonder, what have i achieved so far in my life. other than being a prick in other's life, wasting resources, eating and sleeping, becoming another passerby in someone's elses life, what else have i done. what else.

now i have all the time in the world that i need, to heal, to grow, to feel, to fall, to do anything. but where is the motivation i promised myself. last time i was half-hearted. now, im just dreaming 24/7.

darwin is darwin and darwin is darwin.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

post #289.

go tritons!

sometimes i wonder what have i done to myself. because its just weird, i dont know what to say. i kinda comprehended what my mom said. even you had money, without knowledge you're just an empty shell.

right now i do feel like an empty shell. it is no doubt that i enjoyed my most happy times, and most unfruitful and unproductive life in DVC. thank god i learnt a bit there, but still. i still think this 2 years, the amount of things that im learning is no good, its practically none. yeah tons of life experiences, but not enough to get me anywhere. even tyo-san and jeff-san is catching up in their studies, doing their work everyday diligently.

tyo.

he wakes up, goes to lollicup ( place to study ) from morning till night. he drinks bubble tea which explain why tyo's head looks like a bubble time between, he goes to school. sleeps in the library with the books around him hoping that he can absorb the essence by using the sleeping booking particle theorem ( theres no such theory ), whereby book particle would be absorb by his skin and braincells while he sleep. effective! his only friends are the internet, and the books that can teach him a thousand things.

darwin.

he wakes up and check his handphone and msn. he goes to school and comes home and sleep with his 4 white wall. under the time limite wall theorem where by the wall gets so bored by staring by darwin, it finally opened the mouth, darwin has learnt to speak to his wall and ceiling.
he often eats microwavable nuggets that his friends said that he looked like a nugget. he hogged on the phone 24/7 plus the internet when he is not sleeping or speaking with the wall. his friends are the chrome phone, the black electronic book, the white apple, and the smiley wall and ceiling.

jeff-san

okay, one thing is for sure. he is highly delusional because of his highly intake of mr cigaretto kun. he thinks his singing is great. okay sometimes, but sometimes my walls at home hear him sing, my wall gets angry it started giving me white powder. jeff san is working hard too, at home counting money as an accountant. he has a better life because his life is well balanced. the wall doesnt talk at his house and he doesnt looklike a nugget or a bubble tea. he looks like a walking cigarette to me with his hair on fire. in any case, jeff isnt my concern cause i bet right now hes finding new girls to flirt with.

both of this character mentioned, = no life.
productivity?

tyo +50%
darwin -50%

i lost my life somewhere out there and i hope one day i can walk and stumble upon my wonder life again. one thing is for sure, my life often fly over to san diego to visit me, but then it comes and goes. i hope i dont have to talk to mr. wall again, cause mr wall is being an ass by ignoring me.

tyo lost his life, but his future is much brighter than mine. he shines while i still face mr.wall and ponder about my life.

i miss sashimi san too. i can imagine sashimi san dancing with rice chan! rice chan is hot while sashimi san is cold. polaris opposite are the best,cause they produce the best food.

GO GO

TRITON.

KICK UCLA'S ASSESSS AHAHAHAHAHa

we dn even have a football team.

we got a water polo team!

watch out UCLA.

cause ucsd is gonna POKE your bruin's ass real hot! HAHAHA TYO!! MATEKKK YYOOOO

Saturday, November 18, 2006

im just like any other one out there, who says.

life fucking sucks.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

i think i shall take back my words just now.
you know the one that u had some bang.
cuz... to think of it...
you only knew how to treasure pple around you after that.
u know how not to treat pple like shit
because thats how shitty you felt.

... no?
lol. im always right.

anyway, to say the truth...
change isnt all that bad.
compared to times when u first stepped into US
and cursing Singaporeans like there's no good ones around.
At least you've grown.
To someone who curse Singaporeans secretly (maybe?)

and darwin...?
天才与白痴只有一线之差 :)

from: youknowwho

"i never thought that one day in my life i would have gone to disneyland with my girlfriend. "

so it was veteran's day and halim and friends came down to sd driving 500 miles south of san francisco. thank you so much halim, for driving here and bringing my girlfriend along too. so we spent a day in sandiego, we definitely ate like shit.

next day went to LA to meet up with tyo and jeffry. ate together and then the next day we went to disneyland. in short, it was tiring. but it was really really fun. i got to see fireworks with you* and stood in the artificial snow. it was one of the most beautiful moments in my life.

sometimes i wished we could just quarrel less, spend more time together. sighs, seems like everything is just impossible now. i should get myself back. yeah.

you're just an angel im trying to hold on to, but i can never keep you from flying away from my arms.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

just came back from LA not long ago, darn tired. but this weekend was fruitful cause i got to have lots of fun.

went to LA, met up with LA BOI and CSUN GUY, ok thats their lame term. hahaha. went to disneyland, and yeah.

bye

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

today was the worst day i had in UCSD.

i woke up LATE. i dint turn on the alarm before i slept. THANK god my smart girlfriend sms me and incidentally woke me up.
early in the morning i met the bus driver that i met for the first day of school. that nigga freaking didnt allow me to board the bus last time, unlucky.

went for the class, the quiz was given out. and i dint know how to the questions. i only STUDIED COS and SIN, CAME OUT TAN. but the TAN questions the TA did talk about it, but i didnt jot it down. FREAK.

economics test, was the worst. i definitely flunk the paper, period.

dont ask me why im like that, cause im like this. studying never seem to be a priority in life anymore. im more excited to watch my drama and sleep then to do anything in san diego. thats how boring my life can get, when you have a girlfriend and you act like you dont have one - long distance. pretty far but not very far. if i was a superman, i will fly at the speed of light to ph everyday.

see? im nt even relating it to my studies. pathetic. OH JEEESSSSH, and JEESH. i meant geeesh. i'm getting more and more useless these days. fuck.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

well, i moved to here if you still didnt know.

its 4.14 AM now and i feel so tired but i just don't want to go to sleep. so i thought maybe i will write abit more on my blog.

finally, im back in san diego. think i missed like so many lessons. im not gonna say how many, but a considerable amount that is enough to affect my studies.

geesh.

so yeah, im glad i survived the highway today. 8 hours of driving was like so shitty, imagine if you were in jail for 8 years. you just keep looking forward to tomorrow, so i shall not do stupid things in life to harm myself. i was reading about HIV and i got so scared for no reason, ok generally i just fear death. well well.

thank god i reach SD alive. i think its pretty much a good thing.

i dont know why but it just seems so hard for me to adapt to san diego again especially without her. since i spent so much time with her, i kinda feel like weird when now im alone in the room. it just feels so empty, sometimes i wonder how long would this last. now my recent obsession has become drama, drama and more dramas. to kill time, and just wasting everyday doing that. time stopped and never move again.

wished i could be back in pleasant hill, but doubt i could be there again since cin's mommy is coming. sighs. between december and january, things will get tougher then. well, should look forward to the best event of the YEAR, VALENTINE! ok still its so far away i dont even know what will happen again. whatever it is, i must learn to control my temper.

last week, i had enough of shits screwing up things in life. so i better learn to be smarter next time.

apart from that, i think life is generally the same. thus, it sucks.

i dont even know what to write at times. i just feel so ashame of myself sprouting nonesense about my " love " life. man what a joke.

i used to laugh at dumbasses for falling in love, mocking at them how dumb they could get and now i got dumber than them.

--> THANK GOD my education level isnt as low as them, or else i would just kill myself. (maybe i wont ).

but doesnt matter, everyone in the world is either falling in love, breaking up, having sex, or screwing around. ok thats not my point, point is i guess its just part of life.

sometimes i wonder if i ever grew up. or maybe i grew younger after meeting you*. i think dreaming about the future is kinda sucky, cause its so shitty to think about what you have to give up now for the future. ok my brain can't rant anymore.

i dont even know what to say because i just got too much things to say. writing like this makes me feel even more crappy. i shall go to talk to someone instead. bye!